Last week was one of those weeks that felt I was constantly trying to shut my monkey mind off. I can recognise now when this starts to happen & why. Then I can get it back under control quicker. It’s usually when I’m really busy work wise & I’m not getting enough personal down time. It’s a clear message that I need to slow back down & step away from anything that isn’t 100% urgent.
I’d had a pretty big week previously spending a lot of time in the hot room teaching triple yoga classes. This in itself can take its toll on all levels. My desk related work was keeping me super busy too in between classes. My mind was constantly making lists & planning. I’d crack on with a project whilst thinking about the next one on the list. There was a lot going on.
The monkey mind kicked in one morning after teaching a double yoga class. I was excited for a new 12pm class that was starting that day. It was the perfect opportunity for me to teach & practice all in one hit. ‘Do it’ my mind was telling me, ‘it makes sense, you’re here stay for class.’ I should have not listened as my practice class turned into a disaster.
I’d been at a business seminar the night before that ended pretty late to say I needed to be up at 4am. That mixed in with an erratic cat trying to sleep on my head meant I probably only had four hours sleep of which wasn’t good quality. Teaching went fine, I can snap into business mode pretty quickly. My once a fortnight coffee between classes seemed a logical move too. It wasn’t. The coffee came back to haunt me in my practice as did the lack of sleep & water.
My head had been telling me to get in the room to practice. I was so up for it I was ignoring the fatigue that was creeping in & my churning stomach from the far too milky coffee (Time to go black or not at all). I’d already sweated it out for three hours & was not hydrated enough at all. I was probably not on top of last weeks hydration either. I brought a whole new meaning to ‘one hot mess.’
The monkey in my head that told me it was a great idea to get my practice in then turned on me. It started yelling at me to ‘get out of the room, go throw up, lie down & fall asleep.’ It took every ounce of self-discipline not to give in to it. The last 15 minutes of class I spent perfecting my Savasana. It’s all I could do to lie in stillness & focus on calming my mind. Checking out of my head & into my heart space. It was very humbling indeed.
The next day I had a yoga hangover & spent the day hydrating like a mad person. It had taken a lot out of my physically & cemented how important it is to step back to observe a situation from all angles. (And stay hydrated!!) My mind may be telling me one thing but my heart has the real answer for me. I never gave my heart the chance to talk to me as the monkey was so dominant.
Monkey mind came back later that day. I was still feeling a bit knackered & had booked an Xtend Barre class after teaching. During the silent parts of the class the monkey was back! Telling me not to go to Barre & go home to rest. It nearly had me especially after my poor effort the day before at yoga. ‘Maybe I should rest, I over did it yesterday & look what happened’ I started talking myself out of it. I even received a ‘get out of jail free card’ when student after class took so long in the shower it was past closing time by the time they left. If I were to go to the Barre I would be cutting it very fine.
No I would not give into the mind this time. Stepping away from my mind I switched over to my heart (Stillness, deep breaths, eyes closed, inward focus). My heart told me I’d benefit from stretching out & I’d have fun at Barre. With a mad dash I made it. Last one to the Barre but at least they hadn’t started. (I even got my favourite spot!)
I did have a great class. My mind was trying talking me out of a happiness opportunity. The class was just what I needed to shake me out of the ‘feeling sorry for myself’ mode I was obviously in. Being surrounded by happy people with a common goal of having some fun whilst getting fit was just what I needed. The instructors’ cheerfulness was contagious & I could hear my Soul saying ‘I told you you’d have fun.’ If only I’d checked in the day before at yoga I’d probably be told to go home & hydrate or else I’d get sick.
Have you had times when you’ve let your monkey mind take over & block out what your heart if trying to say to only find out the hard way? Please feel free to share in the comments below.
Love K xx
This year one of my intentions was to really focus on the positive in every situation no matter how dire at the time it may seem. Blessings are everywhere.
Today, Sunday 12th January, we are having a heat wave in Perth. Yesterday reached 45 degrees Celsius today is pretty much the same. I woke up at 6:15am dripping wet & uncomfortable. Why wasn’t the fan on & where was my other half? He was outside asleep in the hammock as he was too hot inside. No fan was due to a power cut.
No electricity on the day we really could do with the AC, fans & water. Our water is pumped from a bore that uses electricity so nothing was getting through the taps. It’s very humbling actually to be without all the things we take for granted. I know there are millions of people who live without these luxuries every day.
Before I could even think about stressing out a fellow yoga teacher was in need of a cover for her 8am class as she was sick. Missed calls & text messages greeted me when I checked the time on my phone. I was awake & if I left within the next ten minutes sans shower, a cup of tea or food (I couldn’t have the first two even if I did have time) I’d make it to the studio. I did brush my teeth with bottled water. I really could not leave the house with mouth fuzz. I could sort myself out when I got to the studio. Off I went.
The chaos continued to follow me slightly. The studio computer system played games with some payments. I noticed a few glitches in the rosters too. This was easily fixable but not something you want to be worrying about on a Sunday morning. The class went great, a good turn out on a day that was probably going to be hotter than the yoga room.
Once I returned home still no power. What could I do to occupy myself? It was so hot inside & out. We don’t have a pool & obviously the shower wasn’t working, a real challenge to stay cool. I couldn’t do any of my computer-based work I’d planned, as my laptop can’t handle my design software. Journaling, cleaning, writing notes by hand & reading kept me amused but it was so hot to just sit around I was sweating like in a Bikram class.
Another text message brought my solution. My friend was still sick & needed her afternoon class covering. I could retreat to the yoga studio & it has power! At least I can get some blogging done & business admin.
Amongst the chaos of the day what blessings did I find?
- Housework. This wouldn’t have gotten done if we had had electricity. I would have put it off till later in the week & then it would have mounted up even more. Cleansing the house is so important but I do get slack when I’m busy. Using buckets of cold water from the tank to clean the bathroom & mop the floors worked fine. Dusting (which I hate) & tidying just require elbow grease no power.
- Helping a friend in need. Giving is one of my favourite things to do. I’m grateful I was able to help out & the universe provided me the opportunity. Without the power cut I might have slept in & then it would have been too late to take the cover. The blessing here is that without the classes I would have been home all day melting. I was given the opportunity to get out the hot house & do something productive.
- Extra income. This has been a theme for me this past two weeks. Finances have been under review for me. With a reduced schedule at the yoga studio over Christmas my income has been a little slower. Being Christmas too my outgoings were more than usual. I’ve had a few self-love projects I’ve wished to fund, investments as I see it, however they have cost money. I did worry & nearly not follow through with them. Opportunities for self-development may have been missed. I let go of the fear of not being able to afford them & the universe provided. In this case two extra yoga classes to teach that cover the cost. I gave in the above point & this is I feel is how I have been regiven to.
Even though my day was disjointed & out the ordinary the Universe was unfolding just as it should be. It always does as that is what the Universe does! This day was sent to learn from & I feel it has taught me a great deal. I didn’t fight it or get angry. I trusted solutions would present & they did. Even now over twenty hours without power I’m writing by candle light in a still roasting hot house I’m very content. No Internet, no TV & no lights are quite liberating.
It’s a reminder too to disconnect from the digital world from time to time. Rediscover the activities that don’t require electricity. Okay I cheated by using my laptop but without the distraction of being able to ‘jump online’ I’ve flown through this post writing.
Whenever the world seems to be one endless pain in the butt, sit back & look at what the Universe is trying to teach you. Look for the blessings they are all around.
Love K xx
There is only four days of Mercury Retrograde to go now. I’ve really enjoyed it this time round. Probably because I’m in a good place to really notice the fluctuations of the energy. I’m sticking to my intention & letting any challenging situations simply wash through me. It’s working for sure as I’m feeling very breezy about it all.
I’ve mentioned before retro is the best time to implement changes. These changes I feel can be a lot out of our control, we may not get the exact result we indended. If you struggle with being a control freak I bet you’ll be glad when this is all over. I’ve let go of my reins where in the past I’d be gripping on for dear life.
How many people have had technical issues with electrical equipment? I sure have. Blog posts not sharing & email alerts not appearing. My phone would not hold a charge & for a few days wouldn’t even recharge. My design software was been painfully slow. With every single click the Mac ‘wheel of doom’ showed up. It was taking hours to get things done with the constant re booting to freshen things up. Again I’ve just rolled with it or used it as a good excuse to go tech free for a few hours.
One thing I paid attention too this time is what commenters of the retrograde always write about. Deals entered into at this time are subject to change. This can be good & bad depending on what you are trying to do. For me I am trying to sell my car. Not desperately, I’m not in any rush actually but I did feel two weeks ago it would be good for it to be gone by now.
How I came to be selling it in the first place was out of the blue & a bit random. It was a result of a manifestation I made four years ago coming to light unexpectedly. Anyway, I found a buyer but not after reducing the price to lower than I wished. I felt it was a deal done & then they pulled out. I let it go, as I said I’m not desperate.
Within a few hours of buyer one pulling out another buyer came forward who was super keen. Cool I thought, I’m loving the retrograde chopping & changing things it’s quiet fun. Again I lowered the price to accommodate the buyer. I changed my plans for the day to fit in with them viewing the car. Then they pulled out. I was a touch disappointed as I’d changed my day but I knew there was a reason for this happening.
I touched base with how I truly felt. I am in no rush to sell. From a paper work point of view it will make my life easier if I have the old car till my new car’s paperwork comes through. I have private plates & it makes the whole process easier if I can do a straight plate switch. If you’ve ever been to a WA licensing office you will get where I’m coming from, one trip is much better than two.
The main reason I feel these sudden changes are occurring is that I was selling myself short money wise. I kept lowering the price to fit in with the buyers. Okay yes it’s the norm to set the price & be prepared for some haggling. I had also disregarded my ‘lowest price’ bracket. The last offer I accepted was $1800 below than the replacement value the car is insured for. I can see why the universe is throwing me curve balls. I just need to sit tight & the right buyer with the right amount of money will present itself when they’re ready. The car is clean & safely stored away in a garage so it’s not in anyone’s way.
A few years back these sorts of broken deals or sudden changes would have freaked me out. Before I could not cope with things like that as I was constantly trying to be in control. Tight shoulders, headaches & anxiety would have been ripe. Now I’ve learned it’s easier to just surrender. Roll with it. There’s no use wasting precious energy on things that I have no power over.
As the Beatles put it:
Ob-la-di, ob-la-da life goes on brah, la la how the life goes on.
Have you had any plans suddenly change or unexplainable happenings over the past three weeks? Please share in the comments below.
Love K xx
If you’ve read any sort of metaphysical text you will have come across the word ‘manifest.’ Manifest means to ‘reveal’ or ‘to be evidence of.’ Manifesting is a way of making things happen in the physical world by holding the intention of it becoming real from within i.e. in the invisible world. Our physical worlds are the creation of pulling our ‘inner’ thoughts through to make them reality.
Originally this post was going in a different direction with an already structured layout. However the universe had different plans. It’s a big subject to cover & I feel two shorter pieces will be more appropriate now.
This past year I have really started to understand the power of manifesting. One of my favourite ‘manifesting tools’ is one I learned from Doreen Virtues book ‘The Lightworkers Way.’ Doreen firmly believes “nothing is truly lost under the eye’s of God*” (*Insert who ever you wish here, I use the Universe.) Once I started using this mantra & truly believing in it the magic started to happen.
That magic is happening right now, literally five minutes ago something amazing happened. When I thought I’d share this mantra a few examples came to mind. I grabbed an old notebook to look up some references I knew I’d written down & to my amazement an oracle card I was gifted fell out. I thought I’d lost this card to the point I thought I’d thrown it away in an old envelope. Yes there was rummaging through rubbish bags to no avail. I so strongly believed in Doreen’s mantra that nothing is truly lost I was a little sad when the card didn’t turn up in the bin bags.
I still held the intention strongly the card was not lost. It would turn up & be returned to me when it was ready. Three months later here it is again & it has been in arms reach on my bookcase all this time! It’s actually the card I wrote about it this post here. I feel I was so attached & had handed over all my power to it I was strangling it’s energy. Therefore it could not serve me properly until I let it go. Now I’ve detached my power & responsibility has been handed back to me. The card is back to assist me.
Magical real life examples happening as I write, love it.
Another example was when my partner lost his crystal pendant one evening in the garden. I’ve mentioned before we live on a farm so our ‘back garden’ isn’t the average size. He was gutted. There was such a vast space to cover to try to find the crystal it was literally a needle in a haystack situation.
I told him the mantra above. I think he was a little skeptical but went with it. Three days later when he was out mowing the grass he kicked something with his toe. It was his pendant, it had been returned to him.
If something does leave you for a while don’t think of your treasure as ‘lost’ keep the vision in your minds eye you still have it close by. See yourself with it, holding it & cherishing it. Then by setting the intention firmly in your mind that you will be reunited simply trust that you will be. What you put out to the universe you will receive back.
Welcome to the world of manifesting.
Sadly it won’t help you win the lotto. Manifesting doesn’t work if it is ego based or not for you higher good. Often our intentions are manifested in ways we may not realise at first, as we are too focused on a specific outcome.
I will say though from my experience the more you trust and work with the universal energy the quicker things do manifest. They are not always good or positive either if you’re not careful. This is powerful stuff, which leads me nicely into part two of this post coming next Tuesday… ‘Manifesting from a negative place.’
Love K xx